:: anne in the attic ::

Create Your Own Countdown

:: Sunday, February 20, 2005 ::

On this beautiful, rainy Sunday morning, I am on kind of a harsh reality ride. Okay, coming to terms with things that aren't easy to swallow takes turning it over and either accepting and making peace or letting go. Though I'm speaking of things "convoluted and not very interesting," I have composed the following list of resolutions in my head.

1. Rob Brezny (channeling Lillian Hellman) is right: "People change and forget to tell each other." Several relationships, past and present, are approaching irrelevance. Hurts, but it happens in the evolutions of anyone's life.

2. Don't expect people to be happy over your success (or minor successes). Most people will be secretly envious and like you a little bit less, especially if they can take no credit for it. This is not usually manifested openly, but rather in increasingly passive aggressive behaviour.

3. Along the same lines, if you consider yourself an "artist" of any kind (hang with me on the quotes-- denotes mainly someone who creates), save yourself the trouble and don't share your work with your friends, even if you're already aware it's shit or otherwise. Not everyone, but most of them will: (a) behave as though now they think they know your innermost being, and patronize you accordingly, (b) if they do think it's good, will harbor resentment toward you, or (c) if they're into the same areas, cop elements of your work -- consciously or not -- and pass it off as their own. Best to work steadily and quietly on your designated life's projects and let all be decided posthumously. If you really love the work and the process, that's all that really matters. Has any decent artist ever changed his or her work due to "feedback?" I doubt it.

:: Anne 11:41 AM [smartass remarks] ::
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